hey everybody....I switched to livejournal.....you can read up on my life here


later...

well it's been a cool day so far. In the college group we talked about this oncoming war with Iraq and weather it's God's will or not. No real answers really....just asking questions to think about. It was a great discussion. Then second service Sean gave a sermon and it really hit me. All about dying to myself and surrendering all to God. I can't say that I have surrendered all to God. I'm dealing with a lot of frustrations about my future and what God's will really is. I'm frustrated with this whole Georgia thing. And it comes down to me not truly knowing how to surrender all. I just don't know how and what it take. What does it look like? What does it mean to surrender all? Having more questions than answers has been a trend lately. Then I went to lunch with some people at Red Robin. It was cool to just hang out.....and literally all of their wait staff was hot. Good times...now I just gotta worry about putting together a set for worship tonight. I think I know what God is leading me to do but I'm scared cuz one of the songs is kind of complicated and if I screw it up I'll prolly be made of for it later....I know they don't mean anything by it but it totally makes me nervous the next time I wanna lead worship and my focus turns from playing for people from plaing for God. Well I think that's it for now....

it's been a while since I've been here, I'm so horrible at keeping journals updated. It's been a crazy month so far. I went from getting a promotion to losing my job in a matter of a week. Then the next week they gave me my job back. Crazy rollercoaster ride. God really took a week to show me that I'm His. And that no matter how big my problems are He is just so much bigger. It's been real comforting to know that. I also turned 19 on the 5th. And last week I find out that my dad got this new job in Georgia and he's leaving in a week till like the end of July. If he likes it then I guess we move. But I get a choice, I can stay here or go with them. I really don't know what to do. If I stay here I would have to be able to support myself by August. If I go, I leave(yet again) all my friends, my job and my church. I don't know what to do. Georgia might be cool and God could very well have a cool ministry for me down there. But I have got a lot going on here. It sucks. I'm asking God for guidance but I'm not getting any. Just like everything else in my life. It's really frustrating. Like, I know he's there....He's just letting me try every wrong door and not giving me any guidance on which one is the right one. It's really frustrating.
Today has ben cool though, for a while now the computer has been out of order due to the power supply blowing up. I got it replaced and now I'm back in touch with civilization. I can't really say I'm happier with the computer back but it's nice to be able to have it again. At least I have all my Dave Mathews' songs back again:) I can't really think of anything to say so I'm gonna leave it at that....

so yeah...I wake up today from a weird dream about me being a penguin and running away from a polar bear....so I'm in a weird mood. It's Sunday now, another week has gone by. On the 5th I'll be 19, another year would have gone by. It's just kind of crazy to think about....no matter how much you try, no matter what you do....you cannot escape getting older and, in the end, death. We are given a very specific amount of time here for a reason. If you don't know that reason and are actually interested in an answer. If you're seeking desperatley to make some sence of this world.....check out Jesus Christ and see what he says.

"For God so loved the world he gave his one and only son, and whoever believes in him will not die but have eternal life. For God did not send his Son to condem the world but to save it." -John 3:16-17

Well that's about it from me....catch ya on the flip side...